The Only Person Who Reminds Me...

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Don't Blink - Relient K

I've realized that this song perfectly describes my past few months.  Now that I've had a few days to mull things over and come to grips with reality, I'm trying to do what someone really awesome suggested to me.  He said, "Onward and upward.  Take what you've learned and run with it." This song does a pretty good job of helping to describe some of the very important things that I've learned and how grateful I am for the person who has taught me those things.

When I came home from my mission I didn't know where to go with my life.  My thoughts were tangled and twisted fears.  I felt so alone and though the sun rose every day without fail, it seemed to fail to shine on me.  But then I met my best friend.  I had been waiting for a while to even take a first step.  Afraid to act for fear of making a mistake.  But I met him, and he took my hand and walked me through the darkest parts of my life.  He helped me see the light as it started creeping in and led me fully back to stand in the sun.  He made me realize the light is all around us if we only open our eyes.  He reminded me how to sort through my fears and strengthen my faith.  Because of him, I'm feeling like I can maybe trust again.  He's the only person who could have reminded me that we have to keep constantly stepping towards the light.  He's the only person who could have reminded me about faith.  He's the only person who could have reminded me that love is beautiful and true.  And that life is beautiful and new.  Heavenly Father put him in my path to teach me.  To remind me.  To help me through my toughest times.  No one else could have done for me what he did.  He's the only person who reminds me.  And I am so incredibly grateful to him for that.  I just pray that somehow he knows and understands.

I've been terrified of life for way too long.  But there's someone that I super need to thank for helping me to not be afraid.  He helped me learn how to live again.  How to enjoy the ride while you're on it.  He reminded me how to live in the moment.  To put your worries and fears aside and hold on to the moment.  Because if you blink, if you doubt or question or fear, then those wonderful moments in life disappear.  But if you hold on to the moment, if you take it all in, if you learn from it, then what we can become is something far greater than we ever imagined.  Thank you for teaching me that love is beautiful and true and life is beautiful and new.  I needed the reminder.  And you were the only person who could remind me.

Now, because of you, I'm making plans and thinking about where I want to go and who I want to be.  Something I never really dared to do before.  You've given me the hope to do so.  You've reminded me that the right path always leads us to happiness.  And now, even though our paths seem to be going in different directions, I pray yours will continue to lead you to all the happiness that we had and more.  You've reminded me that sometimes while we're on the path, we have to reevaluate our course, make some course corrections.  Even as hard as that is, we can't stretch the truth.  We can't convince ourselves that something is right just because we want it.  Sometimes we may start down the wrong path, and then we have to have the courage to cross it off, get onto a new path, and move on from what isn't quite right.  When we come to a crossroads, we have to realize that we can't always take the path without bumps and divets and rocks.  The easy path won't lead us to happiness.  The struggles and hardships and even heartaches that we experience, are just part of the journey.  They are the path that leads us to happiness.  They are the moments we have to hold on to.  We can't blink.  We can't close our eyes to them, ignore them, pretend they don't exist.  We have to hold on to them and embrace them because with them, just think about all that we can become.  Thank you for reminding me that the path I want, isn't always necessarily the right path.  Thank you for leading by example and for encouraging me to press forward down the right path even when the way is hard and the road is unsure.  You were the only person who could remind me.

Love is beautiful and true.  Life is beautiful and new.  Thank you for reminding me how to truly love and really live.  Thank you for reminding me of the beauty that is all around us and within us.  You're the only person who could have reminded me.  So here's to a new adventure.  New paths to take.  Once again I find myself a little stuck.  Not quite knowing where to go.  But my thoughts are no longer fears.  And I no longer doubt that happiness is in each moment along the way.  Because you've reminded me how to push past the darkness.  You've reminded me how to always look to the Light.  You've taught me and reminded me of more things than I'll ever be able to tell you.  More than I'll ever be able to put into words.  Far more than I'll ever be able to thank you for.  Thank you for being the person who reminds me.  Hold on now.  Let's not blink.  On this this new adventure, I'm excited to see what we both become.